I can't wait to watch his eyes light up when he sees the ocean for the first time, to see him swim
in the waves, to share as much of the world as I can with him.

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We took this photo in Mexico. I was 15 weeks along and we were well on our way with documenting Liam's beautiful pregnancy.

I'd always loved this photo. J had put a flash behind us because it was pitch dark out and after about 10 takes this is what we got. It was perfect. Symbolic of the life that was growing inside of me. The life we created and loved and couldn't wait to meet.

We chose Liam's name during that trip. "Liam, if he's a boy"...

I look at this photo now, and well, it's taken on a whole new level of meaning. I'm thankful that we didn't wait to start taking pregnancy photos because each one means so very much.

Who would have thought that five weeks later i'd be lying in a hospital bed fighting to save Liam's life?

Who would have thought so many things.

I miss him so much.

2 & 1/4 of us.

I'm still a calm & zen vacationing kind of Tash these days, the daily grind hasn't gotten to me yet. I know that baby has lots to do with it too, my heart is so full and happy that I guess it will just take a whole lot more than usual to get me down or stressed out. This weekend J was annoyed with the regular stuff like traffic, finding parking at the grocery store, long line-ups at the cash, etc. and I was like his personal little buddha calming him down every time ;) Vacationing J is long gone but it's okay, we balance each other out.

Vacation is the best though and don't we work so hard all year long for these few little weeks of freedom! Our trip to Mexico renewed us and even brought us closer together as a couple. Sitting by the ocean talking about baby, baby names, etc. was pretty special. It was a different kind of trip of course, we didn't care about making new friends or socializing all that much, it was all about the two of us, or rather the 2 and 1/4 of us ;) One night we were walking back to our room from a fabulous dinner and I was saying how beautiful everything was {I must have said that at least twenty times a day} and J said let's take a photo. It was midnight and pitch dark and I had no idea how he was going to pull it off but he came out of our room with the camera, tripod and a flash and took this photo. It's one of my favorites. For us, it has so much meaning. We laughed running back and forth to see how each photo turned out and then I cried when I saw this one because I loved it so much. I cry more these days, i'm a little nutty I guess but it's always happy tears :)

Have a great start to the new week friends! And thank you so much for your lovely comments on our trip!!

tulum.

Mexico took my breath away more times than I could keep count, and especially so during our visit to the Tulum ruins. While we are all about vacationing and kicking up our heels, we also wanted to get to know the country and some of it's history so we took a taxi from the resort and headed to the closest ruins. J and I were in awe while we walked through the ruins and listened to the tour guide tell us about the incredible history of the Mayan people. We fell in love with the home of Ixchel, the goddess of fertility, where you can still see the engravings on the walls of a baby and a woman giving birth in the squatting position. Mayan women used to leave gifts outside her door in exchange for her blessings, and standing in front of her home with baby bump in tow felt very special for us. Then there was the Tulum beach just beneath the historical cliff. It was glorious and all I wanted to do was jump into those waves!

My husband took such amazing photos during our trip, i'll always have the memories in my mind yes, but we have these beautiful images that we can always look back on as well. Love you J!

viva mexico.

Hola! What can I say, our trip to Mexico was something straight out of my dreams; the people, culture, history, sparkling beaches, delicious food, I fell in love with it all!

Everyday I ate fresh fruits, sea food, yummy gazpacho soup and the best guacamole i've ever tasted. We ate like champs and my growing bump is proof that baby enjoys Mexican cuisine as much mama does! A few of the resort staff joked that there's a little Mexican in my tummy, ha!

It was my first time in Mexico but definitely not my last, J and I are already planning to go back with our little coconut {baby's new nickname}. I can't wait to show he or she the world, but if i'm going to do that then I have to go back to work and make some money, so it's back to reality now!

Happy Monday!