August 13, 2013

two.


We do meaningful things

and visit a meaningful spot.

It is his day.

A day for rituals

and reflection.

I think about what Liam's life means to us

and all the ways he's changed me.

I remember why we are right here right now

and the little boy who is not.


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In Toronto, candles are lit

and two balloons hang next to his picture frame.

Photos of Liam are posted on his aunt's Facebook wall

and messages of remembrance are exchanged.

Justin shows me each one

and my tender heart swells.

He is remembered and missed and loved.


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Liam is gone

but he is very much a part of each and every day.

He is a part of us.

His story is weaved into his brother's,

into mine.

I carry one of my sons in my arms

and the other one in my heart.


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August 6 is the anniversary of our first son's birth.

Liam would be two years old now.

I miss him so much.

I love him so much.


/ Some photos from his day.

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26 comments:

  1. Oh Tash. Your words are beautiful. Your strength and love are truly inspiration. What tender pictures to celebrate Liam's birthday. Thinking of you xxx

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  2. Such beautiful photos. And such beautiful babies. Two - crazy: an eternity and at the same time just the length of a little sigh. Sending love to you and your family and remembering little Liam.

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  3. Also I like how you say that Liam's story is weaved into his brother's; I feel that so strongly about A and M. He is part of her story and his brilliance, the wonder of him, comes from her, at least partly, too.

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    1. I love that J, and I feel the same way. Every baby is an absolute miracle but I believe our "rainbows" have that extra touch of wonder and light yes. Leif wouldn't be here if it weren't for Liam. I try not to think about it too much because it's so hard but it's our truth and our story.

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  4. For some very bizarre reason, I thought of you yesterday and wondered how you'd been. I had to look in my old blog to find a comment from you to get to your blog. I am so glad I found you again. I was so glad to catch up by reading and see Leif in your arms. He is beautiful. Congratulations.

    Bittersweet love...and beauty in your life right now.

    Love from NB.

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    1. Thank you Natalie. Funny, I thought of you not too long ago. I hope you're doing well. xx

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  5. I miss your Liam. I love how his life and love will forever be weaved into your family. xoxo

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    1. Thank you for missing Liam with me Julie. xx

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  6. So sweet. Missing Liam with you. What a tender day. Beautiful pictures. Beautiful mama. Beautiful brother. Beautiful family. xoxoxo

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    1. Thank you lovely Suzanne xx

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  7. Remembering Liam with you. It was ten years for us on August 8th and it seems like both an eternity and a split second. C. is also woven into our family and our lives and always will be.

    Beautiful photos. xo

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    1. Thank you Jacqueline. 10 light years... remembering your sweet girl C. xx

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  8. Beautiful my friend. Your Liam is always on my mind.

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    1. Thank you my friend. That means so much. xx

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  9. Some fantastic shots :) The little one looks so happy and in the moment :D

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    1. Thanks Kelven. These photos are by Justin and that's a compliment coming from you :)

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  10. Tash, your pictures are beautiful. That day looked absolutely breathtaking.
    You have beautiful boys, and I cannot believe 2 entire years have passed without your first born.
    You and your entire family are on my mind DAILY.
    Loving and remembering Liam xxo always

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    1. Thank you Veronica. I think about you and your boys so much too. Sending love from Montreal xx

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  11. Beautiful, just beautiful xo

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  12. Lovely. Remembering with you, your two connected little ones.

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  13. sending love and prayers to you.
    xx

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