July 16, 2017

August 6, 2017 will mark six years since Liam was born. So much has changed in six years and so much remains exactly the same.

May 26, 2017

He picked a few stems and held the flowers against his cheek saying I love you Liam.

He asks more questions about his brother and I can see in his face that he is trying to
understand what happened, but of course there is no understanding it.

All I can teach him is that life is a gift and not everyone gets to grow old.

His brother is an integral part of our life, our story, and he will never be forgotten.

For Liam.

March 23, 2017

ANGER is the deepest form of compassion, for another, for the world, for the self, 
for a life, for the body, for a family and for all our ideals, all vulnerable and all, 
possibly about to be hurt. Stripped of physical imprisonment and violent reaction,
anger is the purest form of care, the internal living flame of anger always illuminates
what we belong to, what we wish to protect and what we are willing to hazard 
ourselves for. What we usually call anger is only what is left of its essence when we
are overwhelmed by its accompanying vulnerability, when it reaches the lost surface
of our mind or our body’s incapacity to hold it, or when it touches the limits of our
understanding. What we name as anger is actually only the incoherent physical
incapacity to sustain this deep form of care in our outer daily life; the unwillingness
to be large enough and generous enough to hold what we love helplessly in our bodies
or our mind with the clarity and breadth of our whole being.

-David Whyte

March 18, 2017

Watching him grow up is the greatest gift I have ever been given.

March 16, 2017

Dear Leif,

Please don't let anyone ever tell you to sit there and not say anything.
As "your" song goes Get Up, Stand Up.


March 13, 2017

My second and last baby.
He is getting so big.