October 14, 2018

You go on by doing the best you can. You go on by being generous. 
You go on by being true. You go on by offering comfort to others
who can't go on. You go on by allowing the unbearable days to pass
and by allowing the pleasure in other days. You go on by finding a
channel for your love and another for your rage.

- Cheryl Strayed

July 20, 2018

I've been emotional and anxious for weeks. The memories of these days seven years ago are so hard.

On this day seven years ago...

Liam was kicking and moving in my belly. He was growing perfectly perfect. I was horizontal and
desperately trying to keep him inside my body.

July 6, 2018


I am forever grateful for the medical and scientific advances that allowed me to bring Leif
in alive and well. I am forever grateful for this incredible physician and human being. Leif
is here because of her. She is a part of our story, his story. She is a part of our family.

June 24, 2018

notes for the everlost

That he was here at all made more love in the world. With him, there would have been more. 
But without him, there would be less. I ache with this surplus. The ache is how I know it

-Kate Inglis (Notes for the Everlost)

May 7, 2018

We needed a break and he needed a change and to see some of what's out there and this trip did the trick and there is a collection envelop on the kitchen counter marked MEXICO 2019 and my hope is every year he sees more and more and more.