October 13, 2019

September 13, 2019


Oh do you have time
to linger
for just a little while
out of your busy

and very important day
for the goldfinches
that have gathered
in a field of thistles

for a musical battle,
to see who can sing
the highest note,
or the lowest,

or the most expressive of mirth,
or the most tender?
Their strong, blunt beaks
drink the air

as they strive
not for your sake
and not for mine

and not for the sake of winning
but for sheer delight and gratitude –
believe us, they say,
it is a serious thing

just to be alive
on this fresh morning
in the broken world.
I beg of you,

do not walk by
without pausing
to attend to this
rather ridiculous performance.

It could mean something.
It could mean everything.
It could be what Rilke meant, when he wrote:
You must change your life.

-mary oliver

August 6, 2019

8 years

We love it here.

Leif says he wants to live in Vermont when he gets older,
Oh my goodness he sounds just like me sometimes.

J and i have been coming to this spot since we met and before babies and
when i was pregnant with Liam and after he died and now with Leif.

There are a lot of memories here and we are making more,
Adding them to the others.

For Liam.

July 20, 2019

Every year is different and yet it is exactly the same.

June 14, 2019

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

―maya angelou

May 12, 2019

mother's day

Liam. My firstborn. The boy who made me a mother.

April 6, 2019

Tonight, Leif is spending the night at his best friend's house. His first sleepover and the very
first time he sleeps at another house. As we were preparing his overnight bag, he told me "mommy,
i'm lucky!" and we really are. They are friends, but to us they are like family.