8 years

We love it here.

Leif says he wants to live in Vermont when he gets older,
Oh my goodness he sounds just like me sometimes.

J and i have been coming to this spot since we met and before babies and
when i was pregnant with Liam and after he died and now with Leif.

There are a lot of memories here and we are making more,
Adding them to the others.

For Liam.

six

Who would he have been at One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six?

What color would his eyes be, his hair, the sound of his voice, his laugh, what would his favorite book be, song, movie, superhero, what would his relationship be like with his brother, what would their sibling love be like, how would our family's story be unfolding with him in it...?

I miss Liam exactly the same as I did on the day I pushed him into the world and waited for him to die. My arms still ache to hold him, to feel the weight of his body against mine, to smell him, to breathe him in. I still close my eyes at the end of a long day hoping to meet him in my dreams.

Liam, i'm so sorry you aren't here with us.

too short