June 26, 2012
9 weeks & an update.
We got our first peek at this little life. 7mm of hope growing in my belly.
The ultrasound and hearing the heartbeat was encouraging after a scary start to this pregnancy. I've been bleeding for 3 weeks now. My doctor told us that with my history of PPROM (Preterm Premature rupture of the membranes) and Premature birth, bleeding is a serious concern. Dr. B ordered immediate bed rest and medication to help thicken my uterine lining. I'm also taking a slew of vitamins to nourish and strengthen my body and this life growing inside me. We're doing everything we can to give this pregnancy the best possible chance.
For now, we're quietly counting down the days until our follow-up appointment, when we get to listen to the heartbeat again, and then my surgery, which is scheduled for July 16. Some people have told me to enjoy this pregnancy, and I know that they mean well, but so far this pregnancy has been pretty terrifying. And not just for J and me, but our families who call daily for updates. My mom called this morning and said, "Only one more week until you see the doctor now. Hold on". We're all counting down and holding on and anxiously awaiting the next date we get to mark in our calendars.
We're all doing the best that we can.
My little family shared the most heartbreaking experience when we lost Liam. This pregnancy has already brought so much hope back into our hearts, but we know there's a long, hard road ahead. As a friend and babylost mother of two precious daughters and two living children tells me, "Every day that passes, you're a little bit closer".
Thank you to those who left notes and sent emails and who are cheering us from afar. We're so grateful for your support along the way in this subsequent pregnancy and as we continue to always miss our Liam.