January 9, 2012


Have I told you that the flakes are falling here?

We snowshoe in the winter. There's something special about snowy walks in the woods when all you can hear is your breath and your feet shuffling underneath you. J and I have shared magical walks under the stars in the backcountry of Vermont, somewhere i'd like to go again this year.

I'm not one for new year's resolutions, especially after last year. Losing a child puts your life into perspective. This year I take the time to reflect on a year that has forever changed me. On Liam, my son who died before he had the chance to really live. On finding a balance between the two worlds I live in. My world of Liam and my world without him.

One breath at a time. One step at a time.



  1. When something so terrible happens it just feels so strange that life continues as is all around us.
    I am happy that you are finding some simple comforts in the beauty of nature with J.
    I love the photo - but still happy that the grass is green here at the moment : )

  2. Peace to you lady. I'm so glad you share a little of your life here through your gorgeous photos and honest, insightful words. It's truly inspiring which is a special thing for all of us readers. Kellie xx

  3. I love the way you describe your winter walks... I can totally experience it through your words.
    Beautiful photo.

    One breath at a time is a fine news years goal.

  4. Hi Natasha, I was just sent a link to your blog by Jodi. I had a little girl called Grace who was born at 22 weeks in January last year. She did not survive the birth and was born sleeping. As much as I wish that this never happened to you, I find it so comforting to read your words and know that there is someone out there who understands the pain as the grief that comes with losing a child can be very isolating.
    I hope that 2012 is kind to you. I think that sometimes the best (and only) thing you can do is just try to survive each day.. one at a time.
    All my love, Katie x

  5. Beautiful photograph. Vermont is my favourite place in the world. It's such a special place for me and John - we even got engaged there a few years ago.

    Yes I totally agree on the New Year's resolutions... Just getting through this, one step, one breath at a time is enough. Anything more is a miracle.

    It's an incredibly strange and poignant time of year. I too have been thinking about my boy almost constantly. Will a Springtime of any sort come at all?

  6. Absolutley beautiful photo. I really really miss the snow. Love to you and Liam xo

  7. stunning. you photograph your world beautifully.

  8. Stunning photo.

    Before Liam, After Liam. Yes, sadly, indeed.

    Peace to you as you search for the balance, for the integration of your two lives.

  9. Hi Natasha...I am still here with you on your journey as you take one breath, one step at a time and thinking that is all any of us should do...to live fully in the moment whilst seeking peace with our past and stepping bravely into our future. With love Lisa xxx

  10. One at a time is so right. Sending light mamma.. what a stunning photo.

  11. i'm sure you'll keep the Vermont tradition going and revisit that special place again soon. i know how much being out in nature means to you and i'm glad you & J have taken those walks together. this sounds very serene and healing; i hope that was your experience of it too.

    i believe in you Tash and your quest for balance between these 2 worlds. my prayers include you daily, now with extra grounding as part of the visualized path. i look forward to this afternoon very much! xo ♥

  12. I came from Glow and wanted to say how sorry I am about Liam. Sending so much love and I am glad to know of your little man, Liam.

  13. Hugs to you all the way sweet one. xoxoxo

  14. This picture is beautiful! I love snowshoeing and miss it since our move away from Oregon.

    Love & Lollies... Jessa

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  15. We moved south when I was pregnant with Braedon. I miss the cover of snow on the ground. I miss the crystal ice on the trees and the cool air that fills your lungs as you walk outside.

    "One breath at a time, one step at a time". Walking with you.

    I wish your Liam was getting to see his first snow fall in your arms. Love to you my friend.

  16. Thank you so much. Nature has been healing. Justin captured this snowy scene, he has a wonderful talent yes :)

  17. Thinking of you my sweet friend! xoxoxo May your new week be fill with wonderful delights. xox