March 4, 2012

update.


A quick note to say that i'm not pregnant. Realistically, we know what our chances are with IVF, and this was only our first transfer. But I got my hopes up, I couldn't help it, and now i'm feeling pretty devastated and lost. Our new hope is that the doctor will have another plan for us when we see him next week.

I'm going to take a little break from blogging. A time to gather my thoughts and prepare for whatever is next. Thank you for your amazing support and for hanging in there with me, it's meant so much.

27 comments:

  1. Rest your body, rest your heart. Tomorrow is a new day. Thinking of you and hoping with you for a new plan and some different options.

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  2. of course. take the time you need to rest & recover. take care of yourself and wishing you the best.

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  3. thinking of you often and hoping for you and your family. take all the time you need away from this blog. it can be a lovely place but also quite oppressing at times to be sharing non-stop. at least, that's how i feel. wishing you many peaceful, restful and hopeful moments ahead. Je t'embrasse fort. xx

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  4. What a rollercoaster you are on right now. I don't blame you for getting your hopes up, that's only natural when you're preparing to creating your dreams. Just don't let it tarnish your love and dreams. <3 You're in my thoughts.

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  5. Hang in there, Tash. Don't lose hope. xo

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  6. Oh Tash, I'm so sorry...all this hoping and waiting must be so hard on your heart. You are in my thoughts my beautiful friend x

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  7. I remember that first month of trying to conceive again after losing my son. I put so much faith and hope that the IUI would get us pregnant on the first try that when it didn't work I was incredibly devastated.
    It's hard to not want to get your hopes up and believe something just has to go right, right now, after everything we have gone through. But when it doesn't it makes the grief even harder.

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  8. Oh Tash. Love to you. Kellie xx

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  9. I'm so sorry, Tash. Sending you lots of love. <3

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  10. It is impossible not to get your hopes up. Even if you try not to, it is still devastating when it crashes down once again.
    I wish you love and luck as you work on a new plan next week!

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  11. small steps tash. small, gentle, kind steps. sending love, hope and faith your way. x

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  12. I'm really sorry. I don't know that any words will sooth the pain you are feeling. I don't think they would for me. Just know that I am thinking of you...sending you light, love and hopefully a plan. xo

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  13. Thank you for your messages. I could not go at this alone, baby loss and infertility are lonely routes, but here, I never feel alone. You guys are truly an amazing group of people and your friendship and support means more than I can say.

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  14. I am so sorry.. and I am thinking of you. Sending you a big hug from across the miles. Take care of you mamma.. we will all be here when you are ready...

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  15. I'm so sorry, I know how devastating it is no matter how much you try to prepare yourself for a negative result. Wanting to bear a child is such a primal desire, it is unbearably frustrating and agonizingly difficult when it doesn't work.
    It's hard to have hope when you know what the cost of having hope is, disappointment and devastation. Somehow we recover and carry on.

    xxox

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  16. Sending a giant hug and hoping you get some rest and answers along with hope.

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  17. I don't have the right words that could possibly seem like comfort...but I just wanted you to know that I'm here for you sending love, a warm embrace and deep understanding,
    Xo,
    Lulu

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  18. I wish I could make you a cup of tea. Sending much love to you!

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  19. Take time away - it is so hard to feel like you have to share everything sometimes.

    My warm thoughts are with you!!

    xo
    Ashlyn

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  20. I am sorry to hear the news, it can all be so heartbreaking and frustrating. I am sending love, my thoughts are with you.xo

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  21. please dont lose hope. it will get better

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  22. Oh Tash...that negative result must be unbearable, I'm so sorry the first transfer didn't work... but try to remain positive so that your mind and body are healthy and ready to tackle whatever it is this journey has in store for you. Don't be discouraged, hang in there!

    Thinking of you often - strength, love and courage to you lovely lady. xx

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  23. Hi, I found your blog via my friend's blog, Jack at Random. My husband and I lost our daughter, Madeleine, 7 weeks ago at 21 weeks to chromosomal abnormalities. I just wanted to say my heart goes out to you in this path of trying to get pregnant again. It takes so much courage and strength to be hopeful after losing a child. I hope you find peace and gentleness in the path ahead of you.

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  24. Dearest Tash, I'm just so sorry. Take all the time you need - we'll be here whenever you feel you want to post again. Thinking of you xx

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  25. hi Tash, i'm home today and am just now reading your past posts about the IVF 1st attempt. although we've emailed/text each other it's still something that hits me fresh and hard when these circumstances are relived again as a friend and constant supporter to you both. i watched the video again and looked at you - not with every day eyes but through my deepest senses. my heart breaks for you right now and i'm sending all the love light your way.

    whenever you're up to a chat i'd love to call you. xo ♥

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  26. Tash, I am so sorry to hear this. Truly I wish that this transfer had been successful. Sending you so much love and luck.

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  27. oh i am sorry to read this. xoxo

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