December 2, 2011
It's still dark outside, the house is quiet, your candle is lit and all my thoughts are of you right now. Today you were supposed to have been born to us my winter baby. Today I was supposed to leave the hospital with the most amazing early Christmas gift I could have ever imagined. Beautiful you, bundled safely in my arms.
This is the last photo taken of us together which I had wanted to share with others but we were rushed to hospital the next day. Your daddy and I drove to a lavender field and spent the day walking and breathing in the beautiful view. Everywhere we went people smiled and congratulated us. I was blooming and absolutely giddy because I could feel you move as we walked through the fields.
Carrying you brought me so much love. I've never felt as happy as when we were together. People tell me to remember the good times which is really hard to do because all I can do is feel the pain of losing you. This morning i'm remembering our last little adventure together and i'm missing you terribly.
Your mama misses you and loves you so much.