December 2, 2011


It's still dark outside, the house is quiet, your candle is lit and all my thoughts are of you right now. Today you were supposed to have been born to us my winter baby. Today I was supposed to leave the hospital with the most amazing early Christmas gift I could have ever imagined. Beautiful you, bundled safely in my arms.

This is the last photo taken of us together which I had wanted to share with others but we were rushed to hospital the next day. Your daddy and I drove to a lavender field and spent the day walking and breathing in the beautiful view. Everywhere we went people smiled and congratulated us. I was blooming and absolutely giddy because I could feel you move as we walked through the fields.

Carrying you brought me so much love. I've never felt as happy as when we were together. People tell me to remember the good times which is really hard to do because all I can do is feel the pain of losing you. This morning i'm remembering our last little adventure together and i'm missing you terribly.

Your mama misses you and loves you so much.

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8 comments:

  1. This is just heartbreaking. Wrap yourself up in a big cosy blanket and snuggle down into the couch. xx

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  2. This is beautifully written, and so heartbreaking. I still wish I had the right words - but hope you know that people like me are touched by your courage to keep writing about this (and saying prayers for you).

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  3. Hard day. Beautiful photograph. Wishing you peace and comfort.

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  4. That's a beautiful photo of you and Liam! Thinking of you on this very special day. x

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  5. Oh Natasha, this post made me cry. I can't even imagine what you must be going through.
    I am sending you positive energy and light. Stay strong.
    oxo

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  6. Natasha this will be an image you will treasure forever even through the sorrow. Much love.

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  7. I'm never quite sure what to say, just that I want to wrap you in a big hug. This photo: what a beautiful memory to have of your sweet baby boy.

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  8. a beautiful photograph natasha, a magical time you both shared.

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