October 2, 2012
I've been quiet lately
Ticking off each day, each week
As we inch closer to our 28-week goal
We had this same exact goal last year
We counted down each day, each week
Until we had to stop counting at 23 weeks and 3 days
On the 4th day, Liam was born, and died
What a hard\strange\sad\happy time this is
I spend my time reading, writing and meditating. "My womb is safe. My baby is safe". I spend my time with a small number of people who are able to be with what is.
I talk to Liam everyday. I talk to his little brother kicking and turning about in my belly too. I'm doing the best that I can and trying to get through this. I don't think I can describe this pregnancy in any other way. There is fear and hope and love. So much love for both my boys. The one who I wish was here, and the one who I hope doesn't come for a little while longer.